Wednesday, September 29, 2010

I was lost but now I'm found (poem)

As I lay here and think, my hand uncontrollably shakes
Nothing on earth seems like it will be able to stop this quake
I can't get it to stop, I can only sit and stare and my hands shiver
Moving faster than any fast flowing river.

I look all around me to see whats within my sight
Nothing in the place is as it should be, this can't be right
The colors seem to be off, everything seems even more backwards
I look down at the floor, and all I can find is the cracks in the boards.

Can this be an image of what my life is like?
Everything is fine from a distance, but up close it looses its might
This isn't who I grew up to be, what has happened to me
Is this some kind of messed up reality?

I try my best to get to the bathroom
I can't stand up, so I scoot across the floor like a broom
I grip the counter with my last ounce of strength
It almost seems as though my arms don't have the length.

I drag myself up, to peek into the mirror
What I see could be true, it isn't me what-so-ever.
I can't do it anymore, I lose my grip and slide to the ground
All I can do is lay there, in the shape of a human mound.

I hear the key in the lock, I feel that key turn and click
I see everything happening in slow motion, like a cigarette flick
And all I can do is lay there helpless, and just stare in your direction
Will you see me and help me is all I can question.

I feel the slap of your shoes on the floor, as you run
And the next thing I know you have me and saying "hun."
I soon notice that in my arm the quake you have stopped
You were the drug that I needed free this lock.

The feel of your hands in mine is a new sensation each time
Something much better than any rhyme
The smell of you is oh so sweet
Better than any flower that you could find on each street.

I slowly start to feel my strength come back
Lifting me up off the ground, like a car is lifted by a jack
I can feel the love in every work you speak
Holding all of it in, trying so hard not to let any leak.

This is the moment that I know your the one
You've are the girl who made my mind go round and round it spun
Everything in life is going back to the way its supposed to be
And from there I know and you were meant to be with me.

I pick my self up off the floor because now I can stand
I got the nerve to stand up and be a man
Take the courage I need, to be there for the woman I love
And not just be there for a second, like a dove.

The lean in, the slow approach, the soft and gentle kiss
This is all it takes to show that you've brought me bliss
Wraping arms around her, and slowly lead her to the door
Onto the porch we go, cause to show her there is more.

Out there we find the bench swing
Right then and there I know the times right, I kneel and pull out the ring
The look on her face is one of shock
But the sound of her gasp I know her socks I have just rocked.

As the light rain begins to fall, she nods and says yes
For there we sit for a bit, and my lips to hers I do press
Nothing could make either of us more excited, nothing at all
And there we sit, cuddled together just watching the rain fall.